“Body Neutrality” Is the Best That I Can Do

A few days ago, I pulled out a romper from the back of my closet. The black fabric was slightly wrinkled, a few beads on the neckline coming loose on the thread. I hadn’t worn it since the summer of 2016, almost two years ago at this point, months before I got pregnant. I stumbled […]

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The Unexpected Cost of Always Trying to Live in the Moment

Every summer when growing up, my family would take trips to Cape Cod. My brother and I would spend the days leading up to our trip rifling through our CD collections, deciding which albums to bring with us for the six-hour drive (Blink-182, SR-71, and, later, Motion City Soundtrack were always among the top of […]

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The Tug of War Between Being “Perfect” and Being “Real” Online

There’s a lot about motherhood that’s talked about on the internet. Mom blogs are rampant — and you can find one on almost every topic. If it’s not a mom blog, it’s a mom Instagram account. Or a mom YouTube channel. All of which are gleaming with the superficial: lists of favorite products, the ingredients […]

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Motherhood Is Not a “Before” and an “After”

When I was younger, I believed in the idea of separate selves. Throughout high school and college, I felt myself consistently shifting — not so much changing, but disappearing and then reappearing as someone completely different. I divided portions of my life into chapters, all of which neatly fit within the pages of my journals […]

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On Time, And Learning to Hold On To What’s Possible

I remember being a kid, and thinking that the school years lasted forever. One cycle of September to June felt like an eternity, as I counted down the days until classes ended and camp began. Of course, once summer came, everything was reversed. I’d blink, and the first day of camp became the last. My […]

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Let’s Talk About…Postpartum Hair Loss

Real talk: postpartum hair loss sucks. I have a lot of thick hair, and, before pregnancy, it would naturally shed here and there — especially if I were brushing or styling it. While I was pregnant, my normal shedding stopped, and my hair felt extra full and shiny. But just a few weeks ago, about three […]

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